What’s Next?

This is a good question and one that I’d like answered.  But suspense and nearly having an aneurysm each day is exciting as well.  (OK, not 100% desirable, but at least my life is not boring).  My contract with LA’s Kaiser on Sunset Blvd will end May 17.  Then I will be off to NY?  Northern Cali?  Staying here?  I’m not sure.  I do know that I would like to take a permanent position and settle into a place.  “Settling down” is not the proper terminology, but one thing is definitely certain, I do not want to “settle.”  (Uggh, the thought alone makes me queasy). 

I’ve been trying to not over think the events that will be unfolding in the near future.  What is meant to be will be…right?  At least that’s the philosophy that’s made me feel most at ease in my life thus far.  A new friend recently asked me if I consider myself someone who can tolerate a lot of chaos swirling around me and still remain for the most part sane and  inwardly at peace.  I thought about this for a moment before offering my agreeance.  I like that I’ve realized this bit of insight about myself.  They (great philosophers, statisticians, average people) say that moving is in the top 3? 5? of life’s most stressful events.  Perhaps, but personally I find ironing, certain family situations, and encounters with reptiles to be much more alarming.  (Thankfully I’ve been able to talk a friend into doing my ironing for me, rarely go to the zoo/explore nature, and try to limit family functions as well). 

Moving to me is life.  If I had chosen to stay in Seattle I wouldn’t have experienced Texas and Los Angeles.  I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to build as many new relationships and seek a fresh and captivating dimension of independence.  My best friend calls it bravery.  I call it a necessity.  I like change because it exercises my adaptability (something I’ve supposedly grown to be quite good at).

So, as I practice patience my plan for now is to move again, but hopefully find a job and surroundings that allow me to stay longer than 3 months.

(Wish I had more juicy details to divulge.  Soon…very soon!)